out to lunch

thanks tia, kate and coop 

for a delightful birthday out to lunch.

since this is also my state of mind lately

cause of the anxiety of returning to work.

(i am NOT worried about jon and mr.e

cause they do dashingly together

and the delightful mr.e sleeps all night)

i am worried about me.

about being a nurse again.

about being able to focus on work.

about managing my time.

and thoughts.

my poor mind is not up to working speed yet.

my mom said right before a baby is born 

they reach back and pull out a handful of brains. 

elliot has big hands.

and i fear he pulled out of the corner of 

my brain that remembers 

drug interactions.

potential side effects to watch for.

the names of medications.

the important life threatening stuff.

but for the sake of me and my patients

i pray he pulled from the dance team corner of my brain.

cause nobody will get hurt if i forget 

the pep rally dance to the SPHS fight song.